//earshot// Buffy drops her food tray & runs around frantically, trying to figure it out but she can't separate one thought from another. she freaks out, covers her ears & faints... //earshot// ャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャャ failure unnannouced is a feeling that says she does not beta her channel is insecure she does not on this level exist /she is in between/ she is micro-encoding open to random input receiving unfiltered msgs free-range signal overlap creates entity confusion she tries lateral impulses uses positive entropy to negotiate ephemerel audio & remote the negative release layers /?/ map directions of/for <--/interference/--> carrier crisis tries to approximate a normal conversation (via dumb ventriliquism) she is delta waveforms peaking outcast failing falling drowning hearing too much like an aspect of demon [like jonathon is gonna go columbine on the school but he only wants to kill himself] impossible to distinguish between realities she surrenders to the non-sense of listening >in< she retreats in2 her own cell liquid shrinking back in2 her body shadow shedding data shedding the pressure of surface recoiling from the touch of a world that floods her body but cannot access her scanning soft her bones are screaming her body is dreaming they want to play but she is less than not leaving a trace not coming home tonite (not in 1 piece anyway) not in a recognition form human she doesn't know how to decipher the image from the sheets of white noise ripping through her interior resonators over & over & over & she doesn't usually mind the radioscopic disintegration-factor but her band is not used to this high volume she is over the limit she is looking for a quiet place to release mechanical deformation stress she saw the lips moving burning wasting her time this is voltage she tries to map the schematics dehydrate the marrow they share their successes a feed force d14 she asks a-beat-hum-fold-a moment of grasping for language that doesn't sound [metanymic possibilities stuck in her throat] theoretical explanations distance her body they r uncomfortable with the failure that is apparent to them [--this is where she disappears again--] where she finds intimate autogestion her moment of transcending bimorphing she can't walk here any more //wings buzzing//-----> @ resonance intensity finding a gap between what they say they r doing & what she is self-testing bio-electric experience fails to b translated she tries to insert the mystical doesn't anyone here buffologize? they say they are not entertaining while they r entertaining the idea of her body missing lost abandoned they integrate her systems while she dissolves underneath them she is beneath them from beneath you so many hungry mouths open/open/open vomiting themselves into being in her silence they invent her they prevent her access she finds alternate openings subliminal what she does telesthetic how she knows this is audiokinetic failure unannounced ャャャャャャャャャャ